Dysphoria is at its worst when I shower

My dysphoria is at its worst every time I have a shower, because it forces me to look at my body while I’m cleaning it. I look down and I silently cry inside because my body looks nowhere near as feminine and as cute as I wish it looked. Damn this testosterone poisoning. I can’t wait for the testosterone poisoning to end, but first I would have to come out to my family as a transgender girl, and I’m too scared to do that right now.

~ Gwen